Up until recently, I had such a succinct definition in my mind of what it meant to “come home.” I defined the term by the feeling of my entire family, under one roof, sharing time and being present once again. My perspective has changed over the last couple of months as I am now actively participating in the action of “coming home,” rather than enjoying it as a spectator sport. The term I was defining all along, and am now able to appreciate in a whole new way was the idea of “home” simply and plainly. Growing up is helping me to come to an understanding that Maryland is no longer where I live, but where I am from. As cheesy and cliche as it may be, I think the words are true; “Part of where I’m going, is knowing where I’m coming from.”
God has blessed me with the most amazing family I could ever possibly imagine. And they are absolutely what defines home for me. My relationships within my family are what have shaped me into my current person and they are and always will make up the different parts of my heart. This particular holiday season has been challenging for me, as the youngest, in coming to terms with the differences in the phases of our lives. My siblings and I are spread out all over the country and we might never all live in the same place again. But there is so much beauty in change and God is working so uniquely in all of our different stories.
So, on my 19th birthday, I thank God for the blessing of family. For the blessing of home. For the blessing of coming home. And for the blessing of his continued faithfulness in humbling me everyday. May I be a servant and ever aware of God’s grace this coming year.
We have all read in the Bible that His mercies are new every morning, but how often do we forget that? By living in fear or letting our pasts keep us in a choke hold, we are saying to God that His sacrifice was good, but we can bear this burden ourselves. We are essentially saying that we are stronger than the cross. Stop living with doubts about how much God can love you through pain or in seasons of uncertainty. His mercies are new every morning. Start waking up and declaring that you will hold every thought captive to Christ, and that today you will sew seeds for Him. When we begin to look to Him for direction the fear and doubts fizzle away and get smaller in the rear view mirror of our Iives.
"I have learned to be content whatever the circumstances. I know what it is to be in need, and I know what it is to have plenty. I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or in want. I can do everything through him who gives me strength.”
God is so good. I literally just read this in my bible and it was exactly what I needed to hear on this day. And then I got on tumblr and Zoe had just posted it. I love when things like that happen. Thank you, God for your direction. Thank you, God for your wisdom. Thank you, God for your salvation. What an awesome God he is!
"Am I now trying to win the approval of men or of God? Or am I trying to please men? If I were still trying to please men, I would not be a servant of Christ."
God kindly reminded me this week that there is a difference between pleasing people and loving people. God calls us to love him and in turn love others. As a people pleaser I struggle with this. I feel like I cannot love people well without pleasing them. However, the two are apart from each other and through prayer God is showing me that he will allow me discernment in figuring that difference out if I ask. God’s grace is so big and his love is so overwhelming. Even just a glimpse of that is greater than any desire man can fill.